This submit is sponsored by Zappos however as all the time, all opinions are my very own.
Oh hey there, it’s me! Simply thought I’d reintroduce myself since I’m, fairly frankly, a really completely different model of Kasey than I used to be 4 months in the past.
Kasey 2.0? Or perhaps 3.0 at this level. I did simply flip the massive 3-1 so perhaps Kasey 3.1?
I’ve tried typing my “comeback weblog submit” about 1,000 instances over the past 4 months and saved hitting delete.
I’ve a lot to say & share but had such a disconnect to my very own targets, to my very own keyboard, & to my very own voice.
Photographs by my lady @the.photographygirls
I’ve all the time liked running a blog & Instagram for the connection, communication, inspiration, & having a spot to share my story in hopes of serving to others as a result of when folks present #realness, we’re comfy to narrate with them & really feel not alone.
I’ve struggled with, “does anybody wish to hear what I’ve to say?” which in the long run, is self-doubt in my very own voice.
Evaluating myself to others which in the long run solely blocked my very own creativity from flowing.
I noticed a quote a number of weeks again that said “inconsistency in one thing
= doubt in ourselves.”
Take into consideration what number of instances we’re inconsistent with one thing?
Whether or not or not it’s health, enterprise associated, or perhaps a relationship.
What fuels that inconsistency? Doubt in ourselves.
Doubt can really feel like a 20lb med ball sitting on our shoulder, weighing us down from our personal highest self.down from our personal highest self.
Doubt that we’ll make a distinction, doubt that we’ll make a change, doubt that my little (however loud) voice gained’t be heard, doubt that my very own private struggles couldn’t assist anybody else if I share them, doubt that although I work to make a distinction “behind the scenes” it gained’t present, and afraid of what others would say if I share my story.
Then I believe again…Kasey, what number of instances have you ever confirmed all of those flawed although within the final 10 years? But nonetheless held myself again?
I do know that the previous few months have been robust for everybody.
We’re all human & all of us can relate to this sense of the unknown.
For me personally, something out of my management would spark my nervousness from a brilliant younger age.
Once I began having this sense once more in March, when the whole lot was taken away and I used to be left with simply my ideas, I obtained pissed off that my 31 yr outdated self was feeling this manner once more.
Totally different doubting ideas circulated my mind…”You ought to be over this by now…you’re 31!”
Effectively, I’m right here to inform you that I don’t “have to be over this”, however I did have to get assist.
I began with a Therapist, that supported me a lot to succeed in out to Docs and specialists for an current damage that I had been placing over for years, which then led to exams performed that wanted to be run and at last a PLAN OF ACTION to begin caring for myself.
I wish to FEEL good. I need to have the ability to educate my lessons, share with my viewers, & prepare my purchasers with POWER, not feeling damaged.
Once I lastly reached out for assist and obtained on a plan, my doubt began to shed away.
I can do that.
I’ve all the time been ready to do that.
I simply wanted some assist.
Effectively, right here’s my accountability submit to get again in it, and present up as me.
Once I lastly regarded within the mirror, what I noticed was somebody who wanted to step up for herself, not choose herself, ask for assist, GET assist, get a crew of therapists & specialists (hiii @sambrownstrength you rock a lot) to educate and educate me, & create a comeback that nobody noticed behind the scenes.
That is simply the opening to many tales I wish to share, & I’ve been slapped within the face proper & left with SIGNS that it’s time to indicate up with my keyboard & my very own voice.
I’ve plans to outrun my doubt.
Getting exterior with MOVEMENT has been key to clear my thoughts to open area for my concepts.
I’ve additionally been loving them as a coaching shoe for cross coaching and tossing some med balls round, as you possibly can see.
I’ve all the time liked Asics for his or her consolation and their expertise and Zappos for his or her superior choices and buyer expertise.
I ended up ordering a “broad” and I used to be nervous as a result of I are inclined to go along with slim choices. I’ll say, I used to be pleasantly stunned with the consolation & additional assist I really feel even with the broad choice.
I ordered an 8.5 which is my regular shoe measurement, and these have been very true to measurement.
So what’s within the works you would possibly ask?
LIVE instagrams (true to you chats, anybody!?) with visitors that I can’t wait to talk with, extra content material that comes from my coronary heart and keenness prefer it all the time has, & extra simply exhibiting up as me.
So right here I’m. The comeback is occurring…and it might must occur many times, however that’s okay.
Let’s do that y’all.
Be true to you,